Mom would race to the exit, turn around and tell me that
I didn’t graduate to the next grade officially until I made it outside, and she
wasn’t going to let me go. I tried to get past and she would bear hug me and
wouldn’t let me open the door. Struggling for freedom, I finally made my way
out the door, victorious over her plans to keep me in school and from moving on
to the next grade. I made it. We climbed
in the car and she looked at me, smiled and said she couldn’t believe I was
getting so old and I was growing up too fast. I didn’t understand how she could
be proud, happy, and sad all at the same time about a kid getting out of the
2nd grade.
This past December, I stood over Mom’s casket and I
wanted to tell her I was sorry and that I loved her. I wished that we could
have talked about those happy days and made
some more memories. I didn’t want her to move on and graduate, even though it's
better for her to be with Jesus (Philippians 1:21-23). But I couldn’t stop her
from moving on any more than she could stop me from growing up (Job 14:5).
I have sadness about Mother’s Day this year. But I’m
going to honor my mother by loving my family and being thankful for the time I
had with Mom. I’m going to remember the gospel and go to the healing cross for
forgiveness of all times I broke the 5th commandment. I’m going to remember my
Saviour and thank him for giving me the assurance of eternal life through his
blood, and the hope of a glad day and happy reunion, where all tears will be
wiped away, and all sorrow will be passed. My sadness makes me think of the
land of endless days, with no more goodbyes, who will (and does) turn my sorrow
to joy. I don’t mourn like those who have no hope. So, if your mother is still
alive, pick up the phone. Go visit her and hug her neck. I'm going into
Mother's Day proud, happy, and sad – all at the same time — reminiscing about a
mom who loved her oldest son.
2 comments:
Gonna make me cry man... that was good. Thanks for writing that bro. Love you man
Thanks, Lewis. I appreciate it.
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